My visual language
I see it
before
I explain it.
I have always been a visual person. Art is how I take what exists in my imagination, give it form, and place the feeling in front of me.
and never stopped
Where it began
Pencil, paper, and a need to make the imagined visible.
I began drawing in high school when I was sixteen years old. At first, all I needed was a pencil, a piece of paper, and enough time to follow an idea wherever it wanted to go.
As technology progressed, my work moved into digital forms, but it never replaced the act of drawing by hand. The tools expanded. The need to create remained.
“Art allows me to process what I imagine and put my feelings on paper.”
Music gives those feelings sound. Writing gives them language. Visual art lets me encounter them before either one exists.
From the earlier years
Drawn by hand
Much of this work comes from a period when I had more time to disappear into a drawing. The recurring figures, enclosed spaces, desire, fantasy, and darker atmosphere became part of a visual vocabulary that still follows me.
From the digital archive
Worlds built one object at a time.
In the late 1990s, I built my own PC and began using Bryce and Poser to construct environments and figures, then used Photoshop to finish them. The tools were new, but the impulse was the same one that began with pencil and paper: to make the imagined visible.
Most of these pieces became part of the visual language of early versions of The Satanic Network at Satannet.com and Personal Satan at PersonalSatan.com. They were Satanic information websites I created at a time before the Church of Satan had established its own online presence. The images were not decoration added afterward. They helped build the spaces visitors entered.
Late 1990s into the early 2000s
Rendered worlds
Portals, ruins, chambers, figures, and imagined landscapes constructed in three dimensions and finished by hand in Photoshop.
The sites became part of the art
Early web graphics
Gateway images and promotional compositions made for Satannet and Personal Satan when entering a website was meant to feel like entering another place.
The practice continues
The tools change.
The impulse does not.
My projects and businesses now make digital work the faster and more immediate part of my visual life. Still, I find moments to return to a pencil or pick up a brush. Art made by hand has never left me. It remains where this part of my life began.